Monthly Archives: June, 2011

    Don’t cry Mommy…

    So when I decided to move forward with a blog, it was with the intent that I would share some of my business related trials and tribulations and the ‘real’ side of the story.. especially from the perspective of a woman.  So finally, here is one of those stories.   When we first moved to Florida, my husband had left the military at a fairly high rank and was now in the beginning ranks of the airlines.  For those of you who know the airlines, you know that he almost made less than minimum wage.  At this same time, I was trying to grow a company organically (read – double mortgage my life and my first born and max out multiple credit cards).  We were temporarily living in a condo in Cocoa Beach while our house was being built and just when we arrived, all four hurricanes hit Florida.   Keep in mind that I had an 18 month old daughter and a 3 year old son with a severe genetic disability.  Foolish as we were, we decided to ride out the second hurricane and hunker down in our rented condo on the beach.  As you can imagine, this resulted in all four of us in one king size bed, wind howling around us and me being wide awake most of the night.  The weight of the world was crashing down on me and I was pretty much at a breaking point.  Everyone was asleep except me and I just couldn’t handle[…]

    Perfection – or the myth thereof

    So this morning I was thinking about Perfection. This is after my husband called me an overachiever via text because I told him I got up at 645am, ran two miles and lifted weights. Of course he’s saying this while he is on a cruise in the Bahamas with my children and I think he is just trying to deal with his own guilty feelings about going without me. At any rate, my thoughts about perfection were actually formulating while I was taking a shower – ok, I’ll admit it. I have some of the best conversations with myself while I’m in the shower. Something about warm water and quiet solitude helps me think and have brilliant ideas. Of course brilliancy quickly evaporates as I struggle to figure out which way to turn off the water and inevitably it’s always the wrong way and results in a short but severe burn. So – Perfection – I’ve come to grips with the fact that yes, due to my slight insecurities, I am an overachiever. I also over commit, make mistakes, have poor judgment at times, feel sorry for myself occasionally and get mad for no reason (read – ‘bitchy’ – sorry Mom, I had to say it). But at the end of the day, the one thing that I feel helps me to be successful is the fact that I am ok with all of that. I’m not saying that I don’t strive for improvement (I’ve cut back on my Miller[…]

    Sometimes owning your own company sucks

    Sometimes owning your own company sucks. I love what I do and I love the employees of Craig Technologies. And I love the missions that we support and making an impact on people’s lives and honestly, on history.    BUT.. with a capital B. U. T., sometimes owning your own business sucks.   For the first time in my life, my family is going on vacation with out me. Do you know how hard that is for a control freak like myself?  Not only am I a ‘helicopter mother’ when it comes to my kids, but when I started my company, I made it clear that I wasn’t going to be the traditional CEO who traveled a lot.  However, I’ve realized that as the company grows and we all make sacrifices to secure our futures, it is only fair that I am right there along with the rest of my team making things happen.  And although I’m feeling pretty sorry for myself right now, I know that it sure could be a lot worse and missing a one week cruise isn’t the end of the world (although my 8 year old daughter will probably remember this when she is 16 and conveniently bring it up at the appropriate guilt driven time)